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I was born in New Zealand. My parents sailed out there from England to begin a new life, and returned some years later to their home city of Leeds with two children and a need to begin life a third time. I was a baby, and so have no memory of New Zealand, but the idea that I may have had an alternative life there if my family had stayed perhaps led to me being rather dreamy. I was a shy child, but well loved. I drew and made up stories from a very young age. I spent a lot of time in the woods, or playing football with the local kids. My parents didn’t have a car, and so we walked everywhere. Walking became a part of life, and passing strange houses and unfamiliar neighbourhoods made me wonder about the lives being conducted behind those doors. School was okay at first but when I moved to high school I became very lonely. I felt I did not belong. Teachers were mostly distracted or ineffectual, but I was lucky to have one teacher who showed an interest. Things at home were difficult around that time, too, but I remember sitting on buses with my mother, talking about life and god and the way things are. My aunt took me to the cinema and occasionally to the theatre. I was never a good reader. I had no patience for most books. I spent my time reading comics, and hoping that one day I might write and illustrate one. I found the only books that sustained my interest were those written by Philip K Dick. Then one day I read Dostoevsky, and suddenly I found a voice that said something to me, a voice I heard. School became harder, and by the time I was in sixth form I was depressed and friendless. I left art school early and I went on the dole. I could no longer speak to anyone, could not tolerate the world. I barely left the house, painted all day, wrote in the evenings. I withdrew, trying to recover. I built up a portfolio of strange, beautiful artwork and gradually I worked my way back into the world. I dragged my portfolio around advertising studios and art agencies in Leeds, hoping to get work. People saw promise, but didn’t know how to use me. Eventually, I applied to art school again and things changed. I met friends, I fell in love. I learned very little about art, but I entered an illustration competition and although I didn’t win my entry was accepted into the final exhibition where an agent saw my work and offered to represent me. For the next fifteen or so years I just about made a living illustrating picture books and middle-grade fiction. Occasionally, I submitted writing to publishers, and every so often a publisher showed interest. I published one middle-grade book in the US, and a further YA book series was in development for a while, but finally it fell through. During this time, I was married, I divorced, my father died, I lost friends, developed new relationships, and continued to paint, to draw, to write novels, short stories, comics and screenplays. Writing became the reason to write. Slowly, I became better at it.

I still draw, I still paint. I continue to write.    

 

Jason Cockcroft is the author of We Were Wolves, published by Anderson Press.

He lives and works in Yorkshire.

For professional enquiries contact Claire Cartey at Holroyde Cartey.